Friday, October 05, 2007

.... so I DON'T feel like posting apparently

I was just reading a summary of today's Oprah show-a rare occurrence to be sure-and the woman interviewed was the author of Eat, Pray, Love, Liz Gilbert, who went on a spiritual journey of indulgence, restriction, and self-analysis. She then wrote a book about it.
What's interesting to me is how she encompassed her twenties as being in a state of insecurity; saying 'yes' to many scenarios-including marriage, an occupation, and a lifestyle to which she was uncertain-because she did not want to harbor any ill feelings or cause her youth to quote "hold up the train of progress".
What struck me about this is the reality that I have never said "yes" to appease anyone. Perhaps I have missed out on some experiences, perhaps... but ultimately, I've never ever compromised who I was in order to set a cause in motion in life. I have two poles of thought on this: the first, and most self-indulgent of the two, is the thought that I may be confident and aware beyond my years. I've behaved as such all my life, and seeing people around me in situations that are detremental to their self-image because they refused to say "no" is a foreign, yet relatable, concept. The opposing thought, and one that is weighted equally to the prior, is that I may indeed be missing out on some prolific life experiences and revelations by staying the course of my own desires. I have noticed that much of my art has arisen from periods of heightened emotion; be it lust, 'love' (in the LOOSEST sense possible trust me), anger, hurt... perhaps if I tried out more scenarios where the answer "no" didn't come so readily, I could grow, flourish, and create with greater ease and intensity? Hmmm. Something to ponder.
K last post today I swear!

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